I'm Too Old For This

Is it time to get up already?

A little voice whispered, "Mama. Mama. Let's wake up now. It's morning time."

I rolled over in my bed, opened one eye and saw my six-year-old son with a face of excitement, ready to get his day started. Lying next to him was his night owl three-year-old sister who was still sleep. I looked at him, and then glanced over at the clock.

5:55 a.m.? Are you kidding me?

Good goodness son! Go back to sleep!

But I can't tell him that. He's waited all week to see me. Yes, he lives with their dad.

The time my son and I do have together during his weekends with me is so precious. I treasure it.

But I would be lying through my teeth if I said that I wasn't so completely exhausted after I have both of them together for the weekend.


I waited until I was in my thirties to begin having children. Because I waited a little longer than some (although it seems lately that people are starting to postpone child bearing), I'm in my late 30's running after a three-year-old...and quite frankly, I'm tired sometimes.

I push myself all of the time because I know that I will never get this time back. I'll blink and they'll be in their 30's running after their own children (Lord willing). So I make the most of it. I plan A LOT. I actually started creating a weekend agenda for us so that I won't have to wing it. I eat my Juice Plus and try to stay hydrated so I don't get sick too often. I pray A LOT for strength and I have to admit - most, if not all, of that strength comes from God.

Being a parent isn't easy. Being a single mother isn't easy. I choose to do the very best that I can so that my children see a happy, peaceful, and relaxed mother.

I still can't believe he wakes up before 6. Meh.

When did your kids start sleeping in? When did you start gaining back a little of your free time?

What's This All About?

I realize that I've started posting without even telling y'all what this blog is about. So let me rewind the tape.

I'm not new to the blogging scene. As a matter of fact, I've started and stopped blogs since 2001. Yeah, I know, started and stopped. Truth is, I've failed to be consistent. Here's why:

I didn't write from my heart.

I wasn't authentic.

I wrote what I thought people wanted to hear.

My old blogs just weren't...me.

So here I am. A 30-something divorced mother of two who has learned a lot and is no longer ashamed to show people who she really is.

In the last few years, I've learned to only take serious those things that will impact my children, and my life in a positive or negative manner, and to praise God in EVERYTHING!

I learned to laugh at myself!

I learned it was/is okay to cry and show weakness... And be vulnerable.

I learned that I didn't have to be perfect because I have a perfect Savior. I strive for holiness, as that is expected of God's children.

Through all of my hardships, you know what I appreciated the most? Laughter, and people who would just simply listen as I vented or cried.

I wasn't interested in deep antidotes on life. I couldn't care less about the next self help book. ALL I WANTED WAS JESUS, a good laugh from my belly, and friends who would pray and listen.

So this blog is just that. It's a place where I can vent about stuff that you might be able to relate to, share things I find funny (hopefully you do as well), share my testimony and things God is showing me in life, and well... share good music (on music Monday's).

I have a simplistic conversational style.

But I also enjoy the complexities of life.

My motto is:

"I crave complex, but despise complicated."

(Quote me on that.)

Four Things I've Learned So Far in 2017

August is just a few short days away. 

Dear 2017:

I see you! You're not slick.

Love,

Mylah

This is not a post of complaints. I'm just keeping it real. And on the other side of this list are more blessings than I could ever write about. If you stay tuned, you'll see plenty of those posts.

Here is what I have discovered in 2017 so far (in no order):

1. A word that is suitable for describing a three-year-old human being who is currently attending preschool: Threenager. It is so perfect. The struggle has been real.

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2. I love to write. It's my full-time job. But writing about subject matter you care NOTHING about is harder than I thought. I know nothing about playing video games. The only game I play is Toy Blast through Facebook. So writing proposals about game technology is...ummm...a challenge. Am I up for it? Sure, just keep the coffee coming.

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3. I'm not always right. Okay, I've known that for a while, but I didn't quite know how to appreciate different opinions. Just because someone doesn't share my opinions doesn't make them wrong, it just makes them super wrong. Just kidding. I'm learning to learn from others. And because I've turned up my listening ears, I'm learning a lot and appreciate each moment.

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4. Finding a church home isn't easy. I've been praying and praying for God to lead me some place where my children and I will be blessed. So far, I've attended services where one of two things happen:

a. My children LOVE their children's church experience and I leave feeling empowered by a motivational speech centered around one scripture without learning anything about the Word of God.
b. I enjoy the service (for the most part)...although a tad disjointed, and the kids are bored in their children's church - they tell me they don't want to go back.

I continue to pray for the Lord's guidance in this area because it's critical for us to find a church home where we can learn the Word of God and grow! I don't need back flips in the pulpit, but just some good sound doctrine.

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What have you learned in 2017 so far? Leave your comments below!